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EMBRACING.MY.BODY (Embrace series part II)

“People often say that beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and I say that the most liberating thing about beauty is realising that you are the beholder.” - Salma Hayek   Softly my hand brushes down my big, round belly, embraces the curve in the mid section of my body and loves to stroke around it’s ever changing shape, this magical curtain between the outer world and the house of this new life waiting for the right moment to be expelled out into the big adventure of life. Blame it on me turning 33 and somehow maturing into life, or even better: blame it on the the big rushes of oxytocin making everything these days more beautiful, lovable,...

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EMBRACING.FEAR (Embrace series part I)

“Go to your fears. Sit with them. Stare at them. Your fears are your friend. Their only job is to show you undeveloped parts of yourself that you need to cultivate to live a happy life. The more you things, you’re most afraid of doing the more life opens up. Embrace your fears and your fears will embrace you.”   Jackson Kiddard   9pm, my daughter is asleep quietly, the kitchen is clean, the tasks of the day done as I allow myself to enter my time of self care - which I successfully avoided for quite some days hiding in “service mode”, not making any effort to be looking beyond the superficial everyday stuff - lighting candles, switching on...

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I.AM.NOT.JOINING.THE.RACE

“Life is not a race, it is a journey, something to be enjoyed each day” - Wayne Dyer “Julia, I wanted to reach out to you. I’m 10 weeks pregnant. My partner and I are in such a crucial training phase. We’ve just been getting our standing practice steady. Now what? I mean I’m so excited for my pregnancy, I’m healthy, I’m fit, I’m grateful that the baby is healthy… but what about the training? How did you manage?” I get messages like this over and over again. And it’s time for me to share some insights.  Yes, I post pictures of handstands. Yes, I post pictures of hand2hands, also standing. Did you notice that they’re appear less on my...

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SCHOOL.A.TEST

blank white page. blank white page. blank white page. For weeks I was sitting at night in front of that BLANK WHITE PAGE. Writing has always been my outlet, my tool for reflection. Bringing my chaotic life experience into a story my mind can make sense of was always my way home. Too tired, too busy, too distracted, too insecure to start to write my way home on that blank white page, filling the canvas with vision, hopes, dreams and inquiry. Exactly a year ago I stumbled upon a post on huffpost about three questions the Conley family answers at the dinner table each night and it goes like this: “For the first time both of my daughters are in...

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FORGIVE.ME

Forgive me... I'm sorry... thank you... I love you.   As much as Facebook posts might make you assume… life is not only rainbows and unicorns. Day 15 of our travels my daughter states in tears after a morning of emotional overwhelment : “I wish my sister was never born, and I wish you would die”.The words pierced my heart like nothing I have felt before. I knew that something like this would be on the menue one day. Yet, I expected it more towards teenager times. These tough emotions coming up at at the age of six hit me like a hammer... super unprepared. I tried to neutralize in a conversation with my daughter and noticed quickly: not possible....

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